Two Living as One


Relationships are easy as long the the other person adapts to my way of thinking.
 
But what if…
What if my spouse sees things a little differently?
What if my spouse insists I am the one who needs a “rethink”?
What if my spouse has baggage or other reasons to believe they may be led into a painful situation?
What is I’m just being stubborn and insisting on my way because I am the one that doesn’t want to step out of my comfort zone?
 
Can I really know I am NOT THE ONE being unreasonable?  Can I really be sure I don’t need to re-assess my position?  Can I really stand firm on the fact that my own baggage is not influencing my viewpoint?
 
Why is it that we tend to want the other to change first – then we’ll follow?  No matter whether our basic personality is aggressive or passive in dealing with life, in the end don’t we tend to give less than 100% until we see “good faith?”
 
Does self-preservation (that’s what I’ll call it) really accomplish what our heart really desires?  Or does it simply protect us from something, giving nothing in return?
 
A friend recently posted this on a popular social media site.  As I looked over the diagram I had to consider how we all over complicate so many things in life.
 
Take a look, what do you think?
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Of course a mechanical device, like a car for instance, is far more complicated than this but in essence doesn’t this diagram sum it up?
 
What might a diagram for relationships look like in it’s most simplistic form?  If we broke the activities and events of life down to their basics do you think we’d have a higher success rate in repairing it when its broken?
 
Q: Why is it that a “serious” talk between a couple near bedtime usually results in frustration and inadequate sleep?
 
A: Because it’s not focused on resolution.
 
The answer may be overly simplistic but I tried to take into account that other garbage often gets dragged in as well as attitudes of rightness.
 
Yesterdays post was based upon an understanding of something that was going on a few days prior.  Nothing huge, but a problem nonetheless.  We knew we’d need to revisit the triggering event and dissect it.  After several days talking about making such a time and both with an attitude of let’s-understand-this-so-we-can-put-it-behind-us we found the opportunity.  Unfortunately we were forced to violate every rule for such a discussion because the only foreseeable timeframe would be prior to retiring.
 
The conversation was pleasant and mutually agreeable.  Even though it is not complete it promoted a healthier sleep than expected.  We knew we wanted to get to core issues.  We didn’t wrap it up but we did begin the unwrap process.
Triggers: A trigger can be viewed as a stimulus to a response pattern.
    1. Proust’s madeleine cake(see footnote) triggered his memories of times past.
    2. Rejection may trigger depression etc.
    Such triggers are usefully identified in clinical psychology so that strategies can be worked on to alter the response, so that clinical problems are avoided or managed more appropriately.

    In the most basic of layman’s term (into which class I fall), a trigger is something that sets me off.  A sight, a sound, a smell.  It is something which causes my brain to recall a memory I did not consciously intend to recall.  It’s effect often has negative consequences.  It’s because of a trigger things can be going fine one minute, then in the next the world is crumbling before my eyes.  A temper could go from non-existent to extreme.  What is a happy time can instantly turn into a period of intense anxiety or fear.
     
    Triggers recall memories.  Triggers can be a single word which then colors my current experience.  A bearded man or short woman can trigger something deep within me which makes me despise this person I have never met.  I see reality but a trigger alters that reality and tells me “this is the way things really are.”
     
    Memories of this type are often only partial and out of context.  Triggers change the context.  Others will look at us when “we’re triggered” and wonder what happened.
     
    So, does it take a clinical psychologist to identify a trigger?  I think not.  We’ve all been triggered.  We all see others triggered.  We knows it’s happened.  When it happens between two people, this is an ideal time to begin honest introspection and create unity by carefully dissecting what made me feel the way I felt when…
     
    I’m not saying the process is simple.  But a few strategic questions phrased as statements to be repeated can be a very useful diagnostic tool.
    Fill in the blanks: “I felt _____ when you ____ because ….
    Then in response, dig deeper by saying something like: “you felt _____ because….
    (Don’t say “why did you feel….”  ’Because’ is a much better word because it digs deeper than logic)
     
    Processing like this could help to understand feelings and thought patterns which seem entirely disconnected for the reality of current events, but are in fact the distortions to current events making something that is now seem like something that was then.
     
    When two go through this process it brings understanding to both parties and with time could diffuse the trigger bringing the relationship into the present.
     
     

    (footnote):  French writer Marcel Proust in his novel In Search of Lost Time made famous the concept of involuntary memory.  Proust contrasts involuntary memory with voluntary memory. The latter designates memories retrieved by “intelligence,” that is, memories produced by putting conscious effort into remembering events, people, and places. Proust’s narrator laments that such memories are inevitably partial, and do not bear the “essence” of the past. The most famous instance of involuntary memory by Proust is known as the “episode of the madeleine,” yet there are at least half a dozen other examples in In Search of Lost Time including such distinct memories produced by the scent of a public lavatory on the Champs-Élysées.
    My melding oneness and I have been on a quest to find common activities which we both enjoy.  My search has been along the lines of something a little wild and crazy, different.  Something that cements memories in the mind.  Going to see a movie together is a nice thing – as is dinner, but in 5 years what is remembered is often that which stands out as unique.  My personal goal is not to ignore the “common” but the keep from getting in a rut.
     
    Here’s an idea…  maybe it works for you, maybe not.  Go to Google and type in “top google searches for today
     
    So here’s our list and what we did with it…(Top Google searches for June 13, 2011)
     
     
    Well, here were are looking at our list.  I look at her and she looks at me, “Who is Michele Bachmann?”  Another trip to Google and we’re both educated on a future presidential hopeful.  OK, guess that explains #3 – GOP debate.  We were not aware of any debate.  Hmmm… maybe if we were we’d have had more of an insight into #1.
     
    Continuing down the list… to the next term of interest.  (I’m not suggesting we even have a clue about everything in between – it’s just didn’t strike our fancy).
     
    “Bruce Springsteen?” “What about Bruce would cause enough people to search for him that he is #12 on the list?”  ”Dunno – let’s move on.”
     
    “Fran Drescher?”  ”Did she ever do anything besides that silly sitcom?”  ”What in the world?”  ”What kind of person would search for Fran?”  - or more accurately, “what mass delusion of the populace would cause 1000′s to search for information on her?”
     
    Ok, back to Google to a search on Fran.  Wow!  Who’d have thunk it!  Fran shares her not-so-uncommon experience with her ex.  This is made into a TV show.  OK that makes sense, at least.  The Fran groupies have at least explained themselves by giving me a relevant reason to looking her up.
     
    I think I’ll have to visit this exercise again.  It’s always fun to make fun of the masses and there’s nothing like a search on searches to give fodder to make sweeping assumptions about what you’re thinking about.
     
    Hope none of my searches come up in the top 20.  Of course it might bore you silly to see: “How many towns were flooded when Shasta Dam was built?”  ”When is Voyager 1 leaving the solar system?” or “When was the last time Google took a picture from space of my place in Alaska?”
    Dreams of white horses, castles, high hopes and happily ever after pervade the atmosphere in a new marriage.
     
    Ah, the “in love” stage.  It’s so snowy white.  It’s so appealing.  But somewhere along the line all marriages find this illusion – these hopes – shattered.  Permanently.  Never to be.
     
    One book I recently read calls this the “disappointed love” stage.  The realization, be it hours, be it years, that it is not to be.  That wonderful image is not only shattered, it’s like a mirror that is permanently tarnish.  There is no option the get a new mirror; it is what it is.  But there is a love after this, a love better than even hoped for.
     
    How can a tarnished mirror ever have a pretty reflection again?  The reality is that my love for my wife is sweeter than I could have ever imagined.  Our love is far from perfect and we both see that.  But that same love is far richer than those dreams of early on.
     
    The unimaginable thing is that God is a master as using all that hurt and pain to create more than could have ever been created with my hand.  My thinking is tarnished.  My efforts of marginal at best.  The refining process creates something beautiful – to where the tarnish is not even visible.  It’s there but it IS part of the beauty.
     
    I still don’t understand how it can be possible to take that tarnished mirror and make it prettier than the dreams of white horses but it’s happened.  I can not argue with the results.
     
    It takes trust.  It takes giving over of self.  Two impossible things.
     
    There is only one hope.
    As a couple the theory is that two will move closer and closer to becoming one.  What does this mean?  Obviously it does not mean to become physically one.  Common sense tells me this is not even remotely possible.  Therefore it must mean that the two become one at an emotional level.
     
    The fact is that it is not possible to prevent some level of oneness on an emotional level.  The real question is how much will I allow another into my world.  The other is in my world – I just decide which room (or rooms) to let them in.
     
    So now I come to my point.  Because the two are physically two, no matter how emotionally attached they are there are differing processes going on inside.  Independent processes.  Couple these processes with various roles in the relationship and you have complication.
     
    Take a deep emotion like grief.  Both may be affected equally, or maybe not.  One will often, instinctively, help carry the other through the process stifling their own processing of that emotion as much as is needed.  Then, at a later date, once the assistance is not required the grieving process may resume.  This natural reaction is necessary for the preservation of the union, yet it is often the very thing that causes strain on the relationship.
     
    Somehow, as the two go through the emotion, they need to allow for differing rates and processing methods.  They need to find a way to weep with those who weep.
    to Flirt
    to court triflingly or act amorously without serious intentions; play at love

     
    In it’s most glorious context the flirt is a dance between spouses.  Flirting is one way in which to fall in love all over again.
     
    Flirting makes my spouse feel like the center of my world.  Isn’t that the other-centeredness that gets lost in the business of life?  Somewhere along the line two people forget the dreams of a shared life.  Flirting is a subtle (or not so subtle) reminder of what’s really important.
     
    Some common verbal expressions in the dance called flirt:
      • Come live in my heart, and pay no rent.
      • It’s not my fault that I fell for you, you tripped me!
      • Oops! I lost my mobile number! Could I have yours?
      • Are you lost ma’am? Because heaven is a long way from here.
      • I have had a really bad day today and it always makes me feel better to see a pretty girl smile. So, would you please smile for me?
      • If your heart was a prison, I would like to be sentenced for life.
      • You’re so sweet there’s a wanted poster for you at the candy store.
      • Let make it short and simple, I love you.
      • You remind me of my next girlfriend.
       
      Some common non-verbal expressions in the dance called flirt:
        • Smile
        • Glance (short darting)
        • Head nod
        • Whisper
        • Parade
        • Play
        • Pout
        • Knee touch
        • Thigh touch
        • Hand hold
        • Coy smile
        • Palm
        • Request dance
        • Hug
        • Face to face
        • Buttock pat
        • Kiss
        • Caress (face/hair)
        • Eyebrow flash
         
        A text message was just sent, which said: “You remind me of my next girlfriend.”  Who says people with different busy schedules can’t do a little maintenance now and again.
        Up until recently I understood the idiom we express as clearing the air to mean that the two parties must sit down together and discuss differences and reach some resolution.  It seemed that anything short of resolution was burying their heads in the sand.
         
        Ignoring an issue meant, in my thinking, that it would be like a festering wound waiting to become a fully inflamed infection.  In the end that was ALWAYS worse then dealing with the initial issue.
         
        Sometimes, when all else is floating above water, it is simply helpful to air the mutual grievances in a mode of active listening.  Sometimes all we need is not a solution but for someone to walk in our shoes, someone to see life through our eyes.
         
        This recent exercise was enlightening.  When exercised in all caution and grace it can be fully rewarding.  Of course, when not utilizing all the wisdom that can only come from The Lord above this can be a recipe for a raging fire.
         
        Some things aren’t issues of resolution.  Some issues relate more to an understanding partner.
        Remember the last time someone close to you slighted you in some way and it really did not matter?  Now try to remember the last time someone slighted you and it just “burned you up.”
         
        What was the difference?
         
        As I’ve looked at this – the key differentiator seems to be ‘me.’  Many times I’ve asked myself, “Self, why is this such a big deal?  Why do you have to hang on to it like it’s life or death?”  Yet, at other times I find it so easy to let major infractions ‘to me’ slide right off my back and not give them a second thought.
         
        Did you ever wonder why dating and those first few months (or years for some) of marriage were so easy?  It’s because our gas tank is nearly full.  When I am running on fumes (when my needs are not being adequately met) I am gasping for anything I can get; there is nothing to give.  I consume it all.  Fill me to overflowing and soon you find I can’t give enough.
         
        People don’t have an insatiable appetite for self, they have an insatiable appetite to have unrealized needs met.
         
        Finding and filling these needs is the maintenance in any relationship.

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